Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Monday, November 16, 2015

Why Beirut and Paris should be treated on equal footing

Due to the actions that took place Friday in Paris, France, there has been much of an uproar over foregin policy and refugees, claiming that many are a part of ISIS. There is very little that I can say to this that no one else has said, but I am going to make my best attempt, because in the face of disaster, your best attempt is the best you can do.

First, I want to begin by saying that the bombing/shooting in Paris was an absolute tragedy. Far over a hundred lives were lost, which is devistating. I also want to say that the attacks in Beirut, Lebanon were a tragedy, and that there should have been an equal uproar between the two events. If we care about the state of Paris, we should care about the state of their formerly occupied territories and those that are effected. I'm sure at some point you've worried about the French that you know, if you know any, and the people who are vaguely French in your circle that is sad because their 1/4th Frenchness is being threatened by ISIS. But if you are going to care about that, you must also care about your Lebanese neighbor, your Lebanese grocer, your vaguely Lebanese friend.

There is nothing that should be normalized about one countrie's suffering versus anothers. There is nothing okay with either attacks and people need to show that. When the Lebanon attacks happened, there were not Lebanese flag Facebook profile pictures. There were no "average Americans" mourning the death of Syrians as France began to bomb them after the attacks. What I'm saying is that in freedom and humanity, there can be no double standards.

Perhaps, when the same amount of people die in Palestine in the frequency that it does, people should care just as much and write lengthy facebook posts about their trips to Palestine that are sadly muddled with sad memories after those tragedies.

I just want to say, that just as much as it is important to condemn ferocious actions against a familiar place, you should also condemn those actions elsewhere and support those victims and let people grieve instead of point fingers. Muslim lives were lost too. In Lebanon Muslim lives were taken and no one shook with anger, or wept on facebook to confront this, no one who did the same for Paris. There are Lebanese citizens suffering, there was an American's life taken in Lebanon, and no one grieved the same way, instead they point fingers at the same Muslims who are suffering.

Going off of that, Muslims are suffering and have been since 9/11, probably way before. They have already been suffering from backlash and misplaced anger from the world, and Muslims who have nothing to do with Daesh are taking the blame, being ripped of their lives because someone felt they needed to blame an entire religion for the actions of some twisted fools parading as though religion has anything to do with murder.

I'm saying this out of the contempt for the savagery reenacted against Muslims, mainly visibly Muslim women, that is misplaced due to a heinous act created by 7 brutish and maniachal deviants, who themselves are going against the principals of Islam. These actions must be met with the same anger. We do not round up the white middle class and tell them to apologize for the stabbings of women in hijab, or the lynching of black men, women, and children by groups that thoroughly approve of these practices the same way we make Muslims apologize for their religion that doesn't preach murdering nonbelievers.

I just want to say, care for France, but also care about you Lebanese neighbor, your Palestinian priest, your local Syrian church members, for all American Muslims and American Arabs that will be facing the backlash and equal grief for actions that they are condemned for without reason.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Reading Americanah (Review)

I started reading Americanah by Chimamande Ngozi Adichie and for some reason I cannot put it down. I mean I can't really tell if there's a set plot so far, but it's a really good book. Anyway, it got me thinking: I should start blogging in a funny way. I mean I know it's not the same as a blog about universal blackness as I have no way to relate to that as a white girl, but I thought I could share little bits of my day with social commentary, almost like a real blog.

But enough about me. This book has taught me a lot, and not just about race and African relations. As a writer it taught me how to form more believable characters with human qualities, even if those qualities are undesirable. These are what make the character real. Ifemelu and Obinze display their own insecurities and pretentiousness, often regarding themselves in a very self-righteous way. Ifemelu is often found rationalizing her self-sabotaging life decisions. Obinze is obsessive and impulsive. The two are both living in a constant state of discontent.

The author herself uses blog entries and other vehicles as social commentary, which makes this book more than just an interesting read with interesting characters, as it presents common feelings and ideas that are expressed in our normal day to day lives. This is something that greatly influenced me as a writer of both fiction and journalism, which was shown in this book.

I saw a lot of myself in this book. The characters were very convincing that I needed to make a change from just being content to truly living. I am often like Ifemelu, dismissive of my own shortcomings and ego, often indulging my impulses. Seeing it from someone else's point of view makes it all the more real that I should make a change in the way I approach things in life, such as my pressuring everyone to believe what I believe without putting in the work to persuade.

This book is in a way a coming of age. The characters are coming into an age where they should be matre. My only grievences were that the book had little to show for a plot, often jumping around. While the time changes were very visible, the point as to what the plot truly was didn't come until the end. However, this is amazing because the author carried me through the experience so far even without a clear conflict or point.

Also, I wanted the author to know that she ain't slick. "Ngozi Okonkwo." mixing her name and the name of the character of the book Things Fall Apart which she even refers to in the book. 10th grade reading list taught me well.

Monday, October 19, 2015

Showing People What is Right in Front of Them

   There's this issue that has come to my attention about when it comes to people who are willfully ignorant. I know the phrase "ignorance is bliss" tells it best when it refers to ignorance being better to live with. I believe these people who believe ignorance is bliss are just using a common defense mechanism, denial, to rid them of anxieties in their lives. This is really understandable, but also really unreasonable in times of important facts.

   For example, an issue took place in which a scheduled show for a fashion designer in aSsouthern town in North Florida took place. The day before everything ran smoothly. The next day's fashion show, however, was another story. The anonymous fashion designer ran into trouble when one of the models didn't have a badge. You would think you just need the badge, right? It's on him. Well, that same fashion show I was supposed to be working. I had no credentials and went up to the desk requesting a badge for the person I was working under. Unfortunately, they were all out of badges for this specific person, but they gave me a random one. They didn't look at my ID, didn't ask my name, didn't do anything. So why is it that when the one model out of the bunch didn't have a badge the whole show had to be stopped? This one model who resulted in the entire show being cancelled. In fact, it was really messy. They wouldn't even let the designer back stage and in fact were threatening to call the cops. This might seem like a coincidence without knowing the full details. The event in question was basically a women's (predominantly white women's) expo in which a specific type of person was expected to be present. The designer was also a specific type of person too. A black gay man, who is an absolute teddy bear, shown to be treated in such an awful and unexpected way. Perhaps someone could suggest that there is a reason he was treated differently?

   In fact, when my mother suggested this rudeness was due to race and sexuality to my grandmother, she had a fit. My grandmother is one of those people who believes that if they don't see something it didn't/doesn't happen, and that even IF they saw it, it doesn't mean it was for the very clear and plausible  reasons that are suggested. She is also a FOX news watcher, but I degress. This is the type of situation where people refuse to see any other reasoning. To elaborate, I saw another fashion show group go on into the dressing room afterward badge free. No issues or complaints from management then. But if you said this to someone like my grandmother, it would be very shocking to even think that social standing was the reason behind the absurd thing that took place.

   I think it's a real problem when people refuse to hear facts in order to boost their own egos or show people they aren't a bad person, that everyone else is misguided or sensitive. When you show facts about things like murders made by police on people who commit petty crimes, they still defend the murderer because they believe that racism is no longer a reality despite countless comparisons and amounts of data. These people also believe that "political correctness," otherwise known to some as human decency, is a bad thing that's going to transport us into the stone ages. I wish people wouldn't just constantly be on the defense all the time about protecting outdated beliefs or shielding themselves from something they see as harmful to their own comfort. People who refuse to believe that their child is telling the truth about being molested is another example of this.

   In the future I hope we as a people move past the intense denial that we naturally cling to when we don't want to be wrong about something. Being wrong doesn't mean you can't learn, nor does it mean that things have to end that way. There is always room for improvement for everyone. So why not try to put aside personal beliefs to understand the world?

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Enough Space to Last a Lifetime: The Martian Review

So today I went to see "The Martian" with my parents, and for the most part it was an entertaining movie, ignoring the fact that it was about space. Actually, when my sister saw the preview she was like "ugh do we really need a prequel to 'Interstellar,'" to which i was like...it's not...but then I realized it's literally Matt Damon, but not a villian, playing in ANOTHER stuck on a planet movie. Riveting.

The movie itself was so...predictable it was literally "Interstellar" wtf. Half of the cast of interstellar was in it tool. You aren't slick. The whole ship not lining up with other attachment thing was the same exact thing too...truly predictable. But it was more funny than anything which I was thankful for but I kept expecting Mathew Mcchonahay (i'm not even going to try to spell that right) to show up.

To be honest, my general dislike for space comes from watching movies like "Alien" and "Promethius" in addition to that one movie I don't know the name of where they're going to space and the crew has to leave Mars and the guy gets stranded from the ship *gasp* and his girlfriend with black hair just watches as she ascends into the moving ship, knowing he won't make it, and in his final moments he commits space suicide by taking off his helmet and imploding, which is shown for childhood me to see. Just like every other space movie ever.

Anyway what was up with the soundtrack change whenever Donald Glover appeared? The script writers were like "Ah yes, this sounds "hip" and "urban" we should put it ONLY when the young black guy shows up." Honestly.


Anyway, since I've been taking anatomy aka Biology 1 2.0, I've been thinking a lot about cells and cell theory. If everything is made up of cells, who's to say this universe isn't just one big cell? I mean Earth would be the best idea of a nucleus with a lot of life on it, the other planets would be organelles, etc. Everything is a cell that's expanding. Also lysosomes. I just like that word.

Anyway this was going nowhere from the beginning. Don't write off the whole movie. Just know that it's basically Interstellar with less mindboggling science and shorter. I think. More plausible rather.

Friday, August 21, 2015

VIXX First Showcase in Orlando Concert (text heavy)

Earlier this August a couple of friends and I attended a VIXX concert in Orlando at the House of Blues in Downtown Disney. We were shopping when I brought it up that it was coming up,she was more than interested, and so we bought tickets as soon as we could. Unfortunately, the highest level of VIP tickets were sold out. We did get high touch tickets though. 

The concert started with individual videos of the members and a lot of waiting and screeming every time there was a hint of the members coming out. The venue, House of Blues, was nice despite the lack of chairs. We stood toward the back of the second teir of the building by the bar (which proved to be helpful when it came to lining up for the high touch session) and security was pretty tight so we couldn't get any photos of the members. 

The performance overall was amazing. The members really put in their best efforts. They were pouring sweat after every song, and the song selection itself was very nice. Gotta love those pants too. The only complaint I had was that the translator during the variety-type speaking part only translating certain things. I respect that his job is difficult but there were moments where large sums of words were spoken and they simply weren't translated. 

After the performaces they played a video of the members with personalized messages to the concert attendees. While it was clearly prerecorded and scripted, it was really cute and thoughtful. I think the overall concert aimed to be more catering to the audience and fans than any other concert i've been to. In fact, my friend said the concert's performance value was better than Lady Gaga's at Art Rave and Ed Sheeran's (which was in the same venue). It really shows how hard the members all work and how they appreciate what they do. I hope that in the future they can go on to even better things.

As for the High-Touch session, we were lined up and waited until it began. It went pretty fast. The translator asked us to hold up our left hands (I prefer my right but ok) and when I got up there (my friends shoved me in front of them, traitors) I was taken back by their hight. Not pointing any names but someone (Leo) had clammy hands. I blame it on how hard he gripped the mic in his performance. Basically High Touch went like a blur. I mainly remember seeing Leo, Hongbin, and N (my bias at the end). In the most awkward way possible I got to the end of the line and said "I love you" with a smile to N (in a totally non creepy way, I swear i'm not like that). 

Overall the entire concert was a great experience. It was definitely worth the 150, and the night was exhilerating. It was everything I wanted and more. Honestly I'm still in denial that it happened, or that the members exist. This was my first K-pop concert and it was definitely worth it. 

P.S. If you want to know, me and two friends were in denim vests with patches with our bias'  names on the back (we definitely didn't sew those on the way to the hotel). They were super cute. If you saw us let me know. 

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Bentonite Clay Review

So I just tried bentonite, and I mean literally just tried it. I heard good things from people about it so I bought some from Amazon for $9 and I think so far I like it. It's supposed to be deep pore cleansing, so I figured it would help with the acne flareups i've been having. The acne I get is very deep into my skin it feels like so getting something to deep clean my pores has been a trouble for me.

I tried the bentonite clay as a masque and mixed it with a teaspoon of clay and some water, however, I think it was too much clay and too little water, so next time I will mix it more.

It turned out looking like a Queen Helene's Mint Julep Masque on my face, which is a masque i've always used and find helps my skin.

While the masque was drying I could really feel the "pulsating" feeling that the pack was advertising and it dried pretty well and felt like it was penetrating my pores. However, when the masque was drying toward the end of having it on it felt a bit itchy. At that point I couldn't stand it. I took it off with a washcloth and warm water and basically scrubbed it away. However I don't think I'm allergic to it or anything that this was just one small side effect.

The clay really helped with some pimples that were showing up for me and i'm glad that it worked for my money's worth. I think i'm going to start using this on a weekly basis, or when I have break outs, and try it with apple cider vinegar next time.

Before


After

You can tell In this photo that the pimples I had went down. There's some slight redness from taking off the masque but I was expecting that. Overall my skin looks much more bright and less oily and pimply. All that's left over is some scarring that I had previously.

There are plenty more uses for the bentonite clay that I found from YouTube. One video I watched was this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQi9XPx58o4 and it was really helpful to getting moneys worth from this product.